Becoming A Single Parent09:49:00
I certainly didn't think that at 25 years old, I would be a single mum to three small children. It is definitely not the way that I wanted things to work out. However, I have always said that if there was a point where I saw a breakdown of a relationship that was past fixing, then I would always do what is best for me and the children and end it while we can still be on good terms.
I think we stayed together longer than we should have, things had been really bad for well over a year and for a long time I hoped that things would change. In that year my mental health suffered badly and I found myself in a place that I couldn't deal with being in anymore. The past few months things got really bad and I realised that it wasn't worth trying to save it anymore and that I needed to take a new path which will hopefully lead to a happier, healthier me.
Of course with being a single parent, comes judgement. For some reason people seem to think that the decision isn't what they want and so they feel like meddling and guilt tripping you to rekindle that unhappy relationship is ok. Family members who should have your best interest at heart, feel like it is ok to get involved and openly judge your decisions. It is not ok for a woman to want to be on her own with her children.
I guess I still have more of this to come as more and more people find out and decide that they should have a say in my personal life. What matters to me though is that me and the children are happy and I can already feel a difference in myself. I am more motivated and am having less low days and I think the kids have noticed a difference too. It is amazing what a difference it makes to them when I am feeling good. They know that Mummy and Daddy love them whatever happens and they seem to have come to terms with it better than most of the 'adults' around us.
I have started this new chapter of my life with a girly holiday last week, which was exactly what I needed and I can't wait to tell you all about it! I already feel like a stronger and more confident 'me' and I know that with help from the amazing supportive people in my life, that everything is going to be just fine!